Monday, August 18, 2014

August 18


Everytime I see your video, it breaks my heart so much.  I couldn’t do anything to save you, i’m sorry that my family didn’t see how strong and brave you are… how grown up you look.  You didn’t look like a 1 month old baby anymore but so much more mature.  I’m so proud of the fight you fought, you could’ve grown up to be so strong and such a blessed baby, boy, man.  It breaks my heart so much that I won’t see you as you grow old…  how you will affect our lives, your dad and your big brother Vino.  But I promise you that even if you’re not in our mortal world anymore, your 1 ½ months stay with us will forever change us…  because of you, I now value family – Mom, Dad and sisters, cousins and relatives.  I will nurture my relationship with them and see where I can help.  Your dad and me are now stronger and closer, and have appreciated the value of each other in our lives.  I have become closer to God, and somehow I got ahold of this book “Raw Faith” where I’m learning so much on how I can make my relationship with God stronger.  I now see the importance of connection with other people, that those are the most important things, not money, not accomplishment. 

I want you to be proud of me from heaven, and that you are so full of joy up above.  I want to have this image of you happy, playing, healthy and contented. 

Jans - That is beautiful. Thank you for sharing that me, I will treasure that forever. He is so proud of you. We are so proud of you and admire you for your strength and courage ate. Thank you for staying strong for him and for us.
Jans: 

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