can't sleep

i need to flush out whatever it is that's making it hard for me to sleep. i don't know where to start. am getting really stressed out with the upgrade project coz i haven't really put in much effort as i should be doing. am gettimg tired of testing and follow ups and defects, and it's frustrating to have an irritating seatmate. there i said it. now that's a load off. hehehe! arg! can i just have one day all to myself?!?
i keep thinking of something that can be like an outlet for me like jogging or something. don't wanna go back to boxing anymore coz it's just the same thing over and over again. i like the sparring bit and punching the small bag; but other than that, it's just basically fighting the big and medium punching bag. tamad lang ba ako, am making all these excuses! well, in any case i don't feel like going back there anymore. i can go for jogging! well that,s more of a jog-walk for me... Okay more of walk, walk and jog and walk.
my birthday's coming up and that's what i'll do. have a day all to myself, start w/ walk-jog, mass and just basically have the rest of the day all to myself. Ahh, can't wait. =)

stuck in that state

I’m still at that state!!! I think there’s something wrong with me… don’t get alarmed! It’s not about health or whatever. It’s just that I always have this desire to buy something. Last week, I was craving for dessert… I bought this chocolate cake from this bakeshop that was at least 30 minutes away from our condo! I had to go thru traffic to get there… then I had this craving to buy a phone which would allow me to connect with my friends. I think it was an emotional purchase coz I don’t know! that’s the problem… I might be feeling something already… feeling lost? Feel like I’m losing myself but I’m just covering it up with all these purchases! I think You’re calling me again… I don’t know what to do… this is something that I need to work on.