first dentist visti! :)

bechu was so matured about it! i've been holding this off since he's always so scared when we go to his doctor. and dentist visit is always worse for me than with the doctor (or it's just probably me!). i just made sure his visit was with a pedia dentist and there are lots of toys there. but surprisingly, he just went inside, sat on the chair and said AH. my bechu! :)

Vino danced on stage!

Omigash! That’s a huge milestone! Grabe, I was so ecstatic when bechu just went on stage and danced. Even if he looked like he was in a trance, it was just great to see him raise his hands, sway his hips and just looked at the teacher to follow her steps. My gush! This is one for the books! Love you bechu!!!



This one was taking last March 2010… he cried when he went up the stage so I had to pull him out. But now… October 2010, he actually just stayed there and danced!!! Awww!!! My bechu! Haay… I had tears in my eyes! Even hane was saying to give him a toy after this. Grabe! :D

a day before...

I celebrated my birthday on Oct 15, 1 day advance. I knew that my birthday would be all about celebrating with my family but I wanted just 1 day all for myself… no one to think about, do whatever I want. And I was great. I walk-jog-walked in the UP campus which is my favorite place early morning. Who wouldn’t fall in love with this view! I love walking (sometimes I do jog!) around this area, covered with huge trees, surrounded by morning energy, sunlight peeking through the trees… and the radio was actually cooperating with me… 89.1 was playing r&b songs that I love. It was just my kind of morning… and the I had a good breakfast by myself at banapple… o diba? I never knew that this would bring me pleasure – just lounging around, having a good cup of coffee, magazine and newspaper… and shhh… I had a slice of banapple pie! Hehehe! Hmm this could be my birthday tradition!

Then I spent the day with my hane. It was an eye opener for me… gush, I’m just grateful I’m married to a wise man. The things I think of and feel… it’s just too much sometimes… I lose sight of what really is important. My hane keeps me grounded. J

And the movie we picked was actually a good one! RED. I never really heard about it so first time I saw it I was like… naah… don’t want to watch b-movies today. But good thing I saw a mini trailer and it looks promising so I had to request our tickets to be changed from eat-pray-love to RED. It was actually great, I can watch it 2 or 3 times more. J the movie didn’t force Bruce willis to be the action star he used to be… even john malkovich and morgan freeman were just right for the part, they didn’t try to act out on their previous glory but just enjoyed their parts as old people. J they’re cute!

And I finally had a chance to go around trinoma, go inside shops that I want to go, walk and walk till I’m tired and just spend hours looking at stuff, trying out whatever. Before it was always with Vino so I wasn’t really free to stroll around… this is already small pleasure for me.

Cheers for small pleasure! I recommend that for every mom in the world… always look forward to small pleasures.

halloween dilemma

my gash, what did i get myself into?? i signed up as a parent representative in Vino's toddler school and now i have to coordinate this booth we need to decorate for the halloween party. i'm actually excited to do it... i have this concept of creepy crawlies... all yucky insects - against a backdrop of a huge anthill and a huge spiderweb. i feel that it's easy to do... not too elaborate. but this always happens to me! i get all these ideas... i have this image in my head, but come execution time... it goes flat! it's gonna be a challenge for me but i have to admit that i would need help.

i'll properly plan this, have a headstart so that by halloween party, it's just setting up the place. ARG! can't wait. :) watch out for the photo. :)

can't sleep

i need to flush out whatever it is that's making it hard for me to sleep. i don't know where to start. am getting really stressed out with the upgrade project coz i haven't really put in much effort as i should be doing. am gettimg tired of testing and follow ups and defects, and it's frustrating to have an irritating seatmate. there i said it. now that's a load off. hehehe! arg! can i just have one day all to myself?!?
i keep thinking of something that can be like an outlet for me like jogging or something. don't wanna go back to boxing anymore coz it's just the same thing over and over again. i like the sparring bit and punching the small bag; but other than that, it's just basically fighting the big and medium punching bag. tamad lang ba ako, am making all these excuses! well, in any case i don't feel like going back there anymore. i can go for jogging! well that,s more of a jog-walk for me... Okay more of walk, walk and jog and walk.
my birthday's coming up and that's what i'll do. have a day all to myself, start w/ walk-jog, mass and just basically have the rest of the day all to myself. Ahh, can't wait. =)

stuck in that state

I’m still at that state!!! I think there’s something wrong with me… don’t get alarmed! It’s not about health or whatever. It’s just that I always have this desire to buy something. Last week, I was craving for dessert… I bought this chocolate cake from this bakeshop that was at least 30 minutes away from our condo! I had to go thru traffic to get there… then I had this craving to buy a phone which would allow me to connect with my friends. I think it was an emotional purchase coz I don’t know! that’s the problem… I might be feeling something already… feeling lost? Feel like I’m losing myself but I’m just covering it up with all these purchases! I think You’re calling me again… I don’t know what to do… this is something that I need to work on.

stuck?

There’s something gnawing at me for days already… I feel restless but I can’t point where it’s coming from. I feel that there’s something missing that’s why I find myself eating junk, craving for something, watch a movie, buy a bag. I know there’s something deeper that’s bringing this on… is it because I haven’t really done something that’s really fulfilling for me as a person? I know I’ve been so focused on bebe, getting my chores done, grocery, meal planning, cleaning the bathroom, budgeting. Even my worklife has just been so-so. Haven’t really felt fulfilled here though it’s not really bothering me that much unlike before. I think I need a change… but I don’t know what. And I don’t even know if I can do a change… it’s weird. I feel like I’m stuck. Don’t get me wrong, I love my bebe, I love spending time with him, I love looking at him and seeing how he’s growing up. I even had this desire to have a new baby… so what’s wrong with me?? I guess that’s it. I’m stuck. I want to have a new house, I want to get into a project, I want to go out of town or country for a vacation but I can’t right now. haay… do I just need to be patient??

What can I do in the meantime? I thought of running, just to get these jumbled thoughts out in the wind. I thought of praying, reading a bible, to get inputs from Him. Sige, that’s what I’ll do. I guess I just need time by myself, just an hour to rejuvenate. Haay…

twins??

gush, i just had a dream last night, i gave birth to twins!! i was so happy about it but stressed out coz i had to get a new yaya and more rooms for them. it was weird, i guess that's my subconscious telling me what i really want. well, i think i'm emotionally, physically ready for a new bebe but i just can't commit yet coz vino's at the stage where he's getting all sorts of virus/bacteria. it's like every month, he sick and i'm getting all stressed out. i want to devote all of my time to him when he's sick and i can't really do that if i'm pregnant or have a newborn baby. it's weird. yun lang. :) i love this song... coz they got nothing on you baby...B.O.B.