another milestone

bebe said his first words... you know i'm not really sure now if it's really his first words coz i'm not at home all the time. who knows?? he might have already said mama without me or his yaya hearing it. but i heard it yesterday! he said memem. hahaha!! close enough!

and he's starting to crawl! he pushes his butt out to move forward. imagine a moving worm. hehehe... it's just so amazing! he just learns this all by himself coz we don't really teach him that. babies really have instinct.

2 front teeth

hehehe... my bebe is growing his 2 front teeth but it's on the lower part. so cute! that's why he gets so cranky easily. we're trying to get him to slurp on some soup or fruit extract, and he really seems to like it. his expression is so priceless! he looks like he's liking but but he'll grimace in the end. hehehe... tapos he knows na when to cry!!! aba! when i take away his toys, he cries out loud like he's hungry! kaya marunong na talaga ang bebeko. i just laugh at him... poor baby. cries his head out while mom is laughing. hehehe! just such a joy! he loves to stand up (stretches out his body and cries out when we don't push him up), he loves to be surprised (can giggle out loud na! especially to his yaya), loves different sounds - vroom-vroom, WAH, he giggles out loud when i tickle him on his tummy sides and his underarms, he loves to play with my cellphone and the remote control (hmmm... may kalaban na kami sa remote! hehehe), he loves his pagong, he gets easily bored with his teethers, he can now be left in his stroller (before he doesn't want to be left there instead he wants to be carried while malling), according to yaya, he already knows what "labas" means and gets super excited when he hears it coz he knows he's going outside with yaya. you know he's excited when he jumps up and down (yes, he jumps... but not on his own)...

hay.. i can drone on and on. but i need to get back to work. later uli, bebe!

unmotivation

Feel so unmotivated. I want to give her feedback to learn how to completely delegate. I mean here she is giving me all that speech that I need to step up to my PSG level here in EBS, that she's gonna give me some coordinating roles so that I could have that opportunity. So I get all excited and riled up with it… somehow giving me motivation and confirmationt that I did the right thing of transferring. But then where's the follow through?? I did what I had to do.. I was ready to present what I found out… but she didn't even give me the chance… then she goes off throwing all sorts of instructions on what to do next??? What the hell was the assignment for?? Even ana who I think is equally competent can't even make her own strategy on what to do??? Hello??? I'm just so mad and disappointed! It's so unstructured! I'm not used to this. I used to be a TL for goodness sake and I definitely was doing better than her in handling people…. To think that I'm reporting to her. That's why I feel so unutilized here. I can do so much but I'm stuck waiting and waiting for tickets, for users to have error, for "further instructions". Hay naku, I don't want to live like this. Let me just wait for R3 so that I'll get challenged again then I'm outta here! AARRGG! I want to give her that feedback but I just feel that it's gonna create some sort of tension between us? But oh well, I'll certainly try!

small things that make the day :)

Just saw Jeff, my old customer in Finance. Well, I felt more like he was my boss coz he was so well-versed with what is happening to the team. I guess he just has that aura that makes me so glad to see him again. :) hmm come to think of it, he's more of a grandpa image… hehehe, I'm sure he's not really gonna like this image I've conjured up for him. He kept saying how proud he was of me, of what I have accomplished in intercompany. See?? How nice. Someone who truly and sincerely appreciates the good job I did in intercompany. I've gotten some positive feedback before on this but coming from Jeff, it really means a lot. I have really been proud of what I did with intercompany, but it gets compounded more when someone like Jeff still remembers it until now… months-months after it. It was so weird coz I kept touching his arm and saying how great it was to see him again. Hmmm.. Now I'm beginning to think if he was thinking "sexual harassment, sexual harassment" during that time! Hehehe… you know how americans are such big on that. But I feel that he's such a filipino at heart. :)

taking a break....

bebeko is finally sleeping. gash... a result of numerous breastfeeding, swaying, humming and rocking for 4 hours. hay... bebeko. now, i'm trying to get some peace and quiet... i know i should be sleeping but i don't want to waste this precious time on that. so i decided to just blog. am still on a roller coaster ride. usually when i take on a new job or assignment, it takes me 1 to 2 weeks to get used to the bumps and grinds. but going on my first month, i still have a lot to learn. this past week has been really tiring for me coz bebeko somehow changed his pattern. He's now more irritable and doesn't sleep easily. before he can go for 5 hours of sleep and he's more asleep than awake. now, he's asleep for 3 hours and is awake for most of the day. i don't know what changed or is he just colicky? so i'm just going with the flow. if he reacts, i respond... which is totally tiring. hay... babies. you can't live without em! i know it sounds such a big cliche when people say that one look at that face takes out all the pain and fatigue but it's really true. you're just filled with so much love for that small person that every tired and achy part of your body just melts away. just looking at the top of his head just give me this warm feeling. :)
we just came from his 1-month visit with dr gomez and everything is fine. just have to deal with some rashes on his face and body which doc says is pretty normal. for such a small person, she recommended some ointments and creams for th rashes and i'm thinking not to put that unless i really have to. the rashes are not that severe so bebeko can still live with a lesser-cute face.
i was trying to browse thru the fashion mags while i was having my haircut and it totally bored me to death! i was skipping most of the pages and i finished 3 mags in 20 mins! this is one of those signs of me changing. scary.... not really. just a thoughtful observation. what else will show??