ARG... again

Napipikon ako! ARG! I'm fixing this FTE forecast and it's such a mess! I have so many things to do and this is eating up a lot of my time. I can't even concentrate on this since I'm seething with anger!
It got triggered pa when the other TLs are "busy" doing some training that they don't really need. The other one even had the decency to brush this thing off eh sa kanya naman to before! Haaaay!!!!! Can I just????!!!

I need a break, a big fucking break!!!! I shouldn't be stressing like this when I'm pregnant, diba enzo?? Hay… grant me the serenity and peace of mind. PLEASE!

mini-me (1.1)

i'm 6 months pregnant. hayy... i haven't really blogged about this yet coz i know if i start, it's gonna be a long write for me, it's gonna open up a lot of emotions and i don't want to deal with that yet. but now i realize that i want to read about this 5 years from now. i want to remember what if felt like to be here, right now.
It has been a slow ride for me. i'm not the kind of girl who enjoys being pregnant, being pampered and being told to take it slow. i always want to be on the go, to be able to do errands, to just go and job whenever i want, to travel and take a break, yo and drink when i want to, eat JUNK food - chocolates, cakes, donuts! so you can really imagine the humungous amount of restraint i'm doing. :) so pregnancy is not something i look forward to. in any case, hane is also not the type who pampers. i resented it at first, but hey that's the man he really is and i've known him to be like that. hay... see?? and this is not the start yet. i have this whole lot of thoughts, feelings, ideas and right now, i'm already thinking of the amount of work i need to get done. and i really need to do it! oh well... this is just section 1 of part 1. :)

transition

gash, here i am on a cross road again. an opportunity to move from Finance to IT, SAP analyst to be exact. i've actually decided already but until now, i still have that nagging question - am i making the right choice? well, i brought this on, i was the one who requested for it. but now that it's here, i'm wary. it's not that i love finance so much. it has really been my safety blanket coz i know the ins and outs of it. assign me anywhere and i'd know what do do. i guess that's the thing that scares me. at this age, should i be getting into a new thing again? i'm scared of starting from scratch again, of feeling that sense of "lost" coz i just don't know the ropes yet. haay... i'm just writing these feelings coz i know i'm gonna go thru with it. I think this is what He has planned for me as well, coz it's going smoothly. hay, i'll just trust in You. if you really think about it, the long term impact, it's gonna be a win-win for me. goodluck sa kin!