cooking 101.0001

we'll i've been tring to cook for me and hane for over a year already and i still need a LOT of improvement. i attempted to cook chopsuey again but it looked like soup with a lot of veggies. even hane said it looked like the stuff you put in a lumpia. huhuhu!!!
sige, next time i'm gonna attack it differently - not put too much water. just let it cook in oil and once it's cooked, water. let's see... :)

mini-me, part 2

finally! i can spare a few minutes on this. hay, the last few days have been really hard on me. i'm so big now and it's hard for me to walk at the end of the day. i can't really eat a lot since i'm gonna feel heavier than usual. but enough of this... gash, just look at me, complaining already and he hasn't even been born yet. gash! it's mixed emotions right now. i really want to be prepared for him and right now, i can say that i already love him so much. i can't wait to see him. but they said he's gonna look like this small ET (right from the mouth of tintin! thanks tin!). but even with that, i'm already envisioning my sleepless nights of just swaying him to sleep. i was just collecting some soothing songs that i'll save in my creative zen and we'll bond and listen to those songs. aww... our bonding moment. i want him to appreciate music as much as me and i want him to subconsciously remember the songs that we listen while he falls asleep so that when he's older and gets to hear these songs, it will give him a sense of comfort. diba?? hehehe... sounds like a science experiment. i just want to create an environment for him that he feels so well loved.
what would he look like??? from the ultrasound, i can see that he has a big nose... from his dad! i want to touch him na and cradle him and kiss him and massage him. i hope the stuff we bought are enough for him. i want the best for him but toping keeps "controlling" the stuff we buy. well, okay, it is practical not to buy some of the stuff but it just sticks to my mind! hay...
i've been reading stuff about breastfeeding. i really want to breastfeed him and they say you just have to be patient and persistent and read a lot of books. so i'm gonna do that. bebe! hope you'll like my milk! :)

ARG... again

Napipikon ako! ARG! I'm fixing this FTE forecast and it's such a mess! I have so many things to do and this is eating up a lot of my time. I can't even concentrate on this since I'm seething with anger!
It got triggered pa when the other TLs are "busy" doing some training that they don't really need. The other one even had the decency to brush this thing off eh sa kanya naman to before! Haaaay!!!!! Can I just????!!!

I need a break, a big fucking break!!!! I shouldn't be stressing like this when I'm pregnant, diba enzo?? Hay… grant me the serenity and peace of mind. PLEASE!

mini-me (1.1)

i'm 6 months pregnant. hayy... i haven't really blogged about this yet coz i know if i start, it's gonna be a long write for me, it's gonna open up a lot of emotions and i don't want to deal with that yet. but now i realize that i want to read about this 5 years from now. i want to remember what if felt like to be here, right now.
It has been a slow ride for me. i'm not the kind of girl who enjoys being pregnant, being pampered and being told to take it slow. i always want to be on the go, to be able to do errands, to just go and job whenever i want, to travel and take a break, yo and drink when i want to, eat JUNK food - chocolates, cakes, donuts! so you can really imagine the humungous amount of restraint i'm doing. :) so pregnancy is not something i look forward to. in any case, hane is also not the type who pampers. i resented it at first, but hey that's the man he really is and i've known him to be like that. hay... see?? and this is not the start yet. i have this whole lot of thoughts, feelings, ideas and right now, i'm already thinking of the amount of work i need to get done. and i really need to do it! oh well... this is just section 1 of part 1. :)

transition

gash, here i am on a cross road again. an opportunity to move from Finance to IT, SAP analyst to be exact. i've actually decided already but until now, i still have that nagging question - am i making the right choice? well, i brought this on, i was the one who requested for it. but now that it's here, i'm wary. it's not that i love finance so much. it has really been my safety blanket coz i know the ins and outs of it. assign me anywhere and i'd know what do do. i guess that's the thing that scares me. at this age, should i be getting into a new thing again? i'm scared of starting from scratch again, of feeling that sense of "lost" coz i just don't know the ropes yet. haay... i'm just writing these feelings coz i know i'm gonna go thru with it. I think this is what He has planned for me as well, coz it's going smoothly. hay, i'll just trust in You. if you really think about it, the long term impact, it's gonna be a win-win for me. goodluck sa kin!