pretend playing

He’s really into pretend play this year. I think his favorite role is playing waiter/chef. He would ask me what my order is and he’d get so excited if he gives me the order (sometimes the ‘food’ is in his hands or it’s in a paper or it’s in one of his toys). So I’d play pretend that it’s too sour, there’s no chicken, I want ketchup, it’s too salty. He’d get excited, get back the order and bring it back after he’s fixed it. Then business is closed, he’ll pretend to sleep, then it’s another business day again after waking up. His lolo asked him to choose a toy in the toy store, and you know what he picked??? The ice cream maker playdoh!!  he also loves cashiering, I bought him this cheap cash register and it has play money that looks just like Philippine peso only smaller. He loves to just copy what we’re all doing – from cleaning and sweeping and washing dishes to surfing the net. He has this small toy that looks like a laptop so there was a time that I turned on my laptop, there he was sitting beside me and opening up this toy laptop as well. I remember he asked me that once he becomes a big boy, we’ll let him do the dishes! Hahaha! can I just record???

my willpower

November 9. Man, that was a day that they just kept coming and coming!!! I started the day VERY early, coz I wanted to drop hane off at the airport for his singapore trip. We were out of the house at 5:25AM. And I was thinking to myself oh no, I didn’t take a crap coz it was too early and I think the digestion process hasn’t completed yet in my tummy and intestines. Ho well… that small thing led to a big thing in the afternoon. The thing is, I felt I had UTI again coz when I pee, it really stings and I felt uncomfortable down there. Good thing I had my urinalysis test done yesterday. So the whole day, I was feeling uncomfortable with all of this. I made sure I drank lots of water but it made me go to the bathroom more. On top of that, I’d developed this cold and cough the day before and now, it’s full pledged! I was coughing every few minutes and I was blowing my nose – green snot and all – every few minutes. Yup, I’m the kind of person that when I blow my nose into the tissue, I take the time to look at the snot in the tissue! J And then by lunch time, I felt a little heaviness down there. Lo and behold, I got my period! Yahoo! That’s another thing I now need to handle. I suddenly felt bloated and it’s weird but everytime I get my period, the first day calls for me to poopoo like I have LBM. So I was starting to feel that grumbling of the tummy (sound of JAWS in the background). So at that time, I was coughing, blowing my nose, feeling tingly down there with the UTI, feeling heaviness down there with my period and feeling that grumbling in my tummy. Yes! All of those stuff are happening in my body! But you know me, I’m up for the challenge. So just to add to that, I wanted to make sure that I went to the ob-gyne at that time so that I could start taking meds for my UTI. I called the clinic and they said the doctor will only be available around 5pm! Dang!! And I wanted to leave the office at 3pm to get a much-deserved rest and to have an allowance before my 9PM meeting! I actually had the choice to go to another ob-gyne with an earlier clinic time but then that would mean I need to tell them my history. I didn’t want that. and I also wanted to know the results of my pap smear and the urinalysis test so I finally decided to wait. I didn’t have lunch in the office, just kept on working so that by 2pm, I can go to the doctor and just spend the rest of the afternoon waiting, eating and boiling! J I felt that I had to eat, even if I was feeling something in my tummy. I found that pancake house opened in Makati med. Halleluiah!! I just had to eat there while waiting for my doc. I decided on something light (yeah right! spaghetti, sandwich and soup meal was not light!). I was already thinking to myself, eating this stuff may not be good for me right now coz it’s gonna push the poopoo some more. but I kept on eating. I felt that this was at least my reward for this very wonderful day. :) While waiting in the clinic, I’ve already started feeling that painful grumbling. I know my poopoo or fart wants to go out! He wants to be free! But I just can’t do it, I can’t poop in public. So again, I just had to test my willpower. I will go home and poop in my home. I had to go back to the office, send that f* handover email and pee just a little bit, trying very hard to control what my butt really wants to do. It’s now 5:30pm, it’s gonna be traffic I know, and the spasms are becoming more frequent. I felt that I was going into labor, i was doing the Lamaze breathing, I was slapping my face, I was pressing the area between my thumb and forefinger, singing just to keep my focus on my poopoo. It was soo damn hard, it was the longest trip ever. I was grateful for small favors, traffic wasn’t that heavy (Christmas traffic has actually started), I had more green lights than red ones, the topic was interesting by Andy9 and Jessica, most of the songs were disco songs and I just pumped along with it. And then I was in xavierhills. Ahhh, the joy, the anticipation, the excitement!! I planned to just barge in, take off my shoes, get my towel and go up! I didn’t get to my towel. I just went it and let it all out! And most of it was just fart!!! arg! I should have released some of it earlier but I was scared that something else might come out. Awww…. The release, the relief. But surprisingly, I didn’t feel that relieved. I felt that I had fever, I was so tired. After that release, I laid down. I felt that I wanted to sleep but I couldn’t sleep. i had that meeting at 9pm to prepare for. I wanted to cancel it, postpone it. But again, my willpower wanted to be tested. I had to facilitate that meeting, I can’t let the group down. Naks! I will conquer! So my next goal is to have vino sleep way before 9PM so that I could just take the call in the room with vino sleeping. Unfortunately, I think he was really in hyper mode. He had homework that he needed to finish by tomorrow so by 7:30 we were working on his homework. He just couldn’t get comfortable with writing his name! it took longer for us to write his name than to actually do the homework. We finished by 8pm so I was thinking I still have enough time. I made his milk, and went up. Good thing I already took a bath before dinner. So when we were up, he was actually expecting me to read him a book. Aww… sorry, I just had to disappoint him that time. It’s 815, drink milk-done, brush teeth-done, diaper-on, alarm up at 845pm, lights turned off. I pretended to sleep so that he’ll sleep… 830, he was still tossing and turning, picking at his nose. 840, I was telling myself maybe he’ll sleep on the dot, exactly at 845 – my alarm time. I took a chance and tried to set up my laptop and phone. Uggh… I saw him still moving. No dice, he will not sleep at 9pm. I had no choice, I had to send him to yaya. So when I stood up to prepare, he stood up as well, gazing out of the window looking really awed at the Christmas lights. I was so stressed out, I didn’t’ even enjoy him being so appreciative of the scene. 857, he said poopoo mommy. Hahahah! Okay, fine, I can get through this. small favor again, he finished in a minute – 2 small pieces of crap. I washed his butt hurriedly and told him that he’ll just have to stay with yaya for a while. 9PM. Okay, needed to get online, sent vino to the next room and home free! Gush!!! Can you believe that?? it may sound real trivial compared with other problems really, but I just wanted to record this fateful day when my willpower was tested, and I did all I could to keep from giving up. Snaps for me. J

Poor buchukoy

He got confined again for the second time at 3 years old & 11mos. The doctor wanted to monitor if it was dengue, and I really broke down in front of dr jaucian when she said it might be dengue. I just couldn't help it, it was heartbreaking for me.

So in order to rule out dengue, they had to extract blood everyday. The worst thing about that is they get the blood at 5am, so we had to wake him up just to put him in misery! Good thing, the 2nd day, doctor confirmed that it's unlikely that it's dengue. Alleluiah!

Anyway, the reason for this story is just another bechu quote. S for the last time, the med tech went to our room to get blood again. Vino tried to fight all of us, shouting and crying, pulling and pushing! When he finally realized that he can't do anything about it, he gave one last shot of trying to stop it - MOMMY & DADDY, TAKE CARE OF ME!! Hehehehe!

Bechu quotes

Bechu was eating dinner and I went to the kitchen to fix something. Then I saw him in the sofa, so I shouted at him to go back to the table coz he's still eating. As he went back he told me - you hurt my voice... So I go 'I hurt your voice?'. Yes you hurt my voice. I kept asking him voice... And then he said - I hurt his feelings! Hahaha... What do you do with except to just laugh!!

an inkling...

Along shaw blvd, I just left our car with Toyota for a tune-up and I was looking for a taxi to go to the office. I saw this boy, around 7 or 8 years old sweeping. He had this big broom and big dust pan. I wondered what he was doing, why was he doing it, isn’t he supposed to be in school. My heart went out to him… I walked towards him but I was intent on getting to a taxi that stopped to drop off a passenger. While I was passing him, I asked him hurriedly why he’s sweeping. I don’t know why, but he just gave me this smile. It was like he was happy that I was asking him, but did he even hear my question. but when I saw that smile, I had to smile back. But I kept going, moving towards the taxi. Why didn’t I just stop and talk to him? I wanted to help him. I remember looking at his legs, covered with scars, at least he had slippers on. This is one of the moments where I regret not stopping, to take that one small detour in my very predictable life, and reach out to someone that I can help. It’s so hard for me to take the risk and just make a small wrinkle in my very smooth life. Thinking about it now, it breaks my heart that he smiled and I didn’t do anything but JUST smile back. I’ve been stewing over this thought in my head. I know my life’s purpose, I am here to help out people who deserve to be helped. I don’t know how to start, when to start and what to start with. But at least I know where I should be heading. I’m not, after all, purpose-less. Right now, I can start doing that, talk to people in the streets, people I know I can help a little.

bechu quote

i was driving around with bechukoy, looking for his lolo. my ate jenny and he got separated at the MRT station, and ate jenny didn't know where he went. i told my bechu that lolo got lost... he (again!) asked why. i just said he was walking and walking and got lost. then he asked - 'he not hold hands? he not hold hands with tita jenny?' :) my smart bechu!

bechu quotes

2/23/2011 We were watching the night news and they were showing Libya situation with all the burning cars, burning buildings, gunfires, etc. When vino saw it he said – ‘wow! That’s a nice place!’. Hahaha! I just told him that it’s not a nice place. Then he started asking why… I told him because they’re fighting. Why? Because they’re bad people. Why? Because! :D 3/1/2011 We were on our way to UST for a doctor’s appointment. Vino starting saying – so many for sale. It’s a wonder he remembers our tripping in BF while we were looking for a house. I asked him if he wants to move to a new house. He said yes… he wants a bath tub! He remembered our time in the hotel, coz he had so much fun!

bechu quotes...

i had just finished cleaning my bathroom that afternoon. Bechu went in to do his night time ritual of peeing and washing right before going to bed. when he got in the bathroom, he said "wow, mommy, the bathroom looks clean and squeaky!" hehehehe!

bechu quotes...

I bought heart shaped donuts from Krispy Kreme – 4 strawberry-filled ones and 2 kitkat flavor. When I got home, bechu started asking ‘salubong? Do you have salubong?’ When he saw the krispy kreme box:
“Wow!!! Donuts! I’m so happy!”. awww... :D