stuck?

There’s something gnawing at me for days already… I feel restless but I can’t point where it’s coming from. I feel that there’s something missing that’s why I find myself eating junk, craving for something, watch a movie, buy a bag. I know there’s something deeper that’s bringing this on… is it because I haven’t really done something that’s really fulfilling for me as a person? I know I’ve been so focused on bebe, getting my chores done, grocery, meal planning, cleaning the bathroom, budgeting. Even my worklife has just been so-so. Haven’t really felt fulfilled here though it’s not really bothering me that much unlike before. I think I need a change… but I don’t know what. And I don’t even know if I can do a change… it’s weird. I feel like I’m stuck. Don’t get me wrong, I love my bebe, I love spending time with him, I love looking at him and seeing how he’s growing up. I even had this desire to have a new baby… so what’s wrong with me?? I guess that’s it. I’m stuck. I want to have a new house, I want to get into a project, I want to go out of town or country for a vacation but I can’t right now. haay… do I just need to be patient??

What can I do in the meantime? I thought of running, just to get these jumbled thoughts out in the wind. I thought of praying, reading a bible, to get inputs from Him. Sige, that’s what I’ll do. I guess I just need time by myself, just an hour to rejuvenate. Haay…

twins??

gush, i just had a dream last night, i gave birth to twins!! i was so happy about it but stressed out coz i had to get a new yaya and more rooms for them. it was weird, i guess that's my subconscious telling me what i really want. well, i think i'm emotionally, physically ready for a new bebe but i just can't commit yet coz vino's at the stage where he's getting all sorts of virus/bacteria. it's like every month, he sick and i'm getting all stressed out. i want to devote all of my time to him when he's sick and i can't really do that if i'm pregnant or have a newborn baby. it's weird. yun lang. :) i love this song... coz they got nothing on you baby...B.O.B.