taking a break....

bebeko is finally sleeping. gash... a result of numerous breastfeeding, swaying, humming and rocking for 4 hours. hay... bebeko. now, i'm trying to get some peace and quiet... i know i should be sleeping but i don't want to waste this precious time on that. so i decided to just blog. am still on a roller coaster ride. usually when i take on a new job or assignment, it takes me 1 to 2 weeks to get used to the bumps and grinds. but going on my first month, i still have a lot to learn. this past week has been really tiring for me coz bebeko somehow changed his pattern. He's now more irritable and doesn't sleep easily. before he can go for 5 hours of sleep and he's more asleep than awake. now, he's asleep for 3 hours and is awake for most of the day. i don't know what changed or is he just colicky? so i'm just going with the flow. if he reacts, i respond... which is totally tiring. hay... babies. you can't live without em! i know it sounds such a big cliche when people say that one look at that face takes out all the pain and fatigue but it's really true. you're just filled with so much love for that small person that every tired and achy part of your body just melts away. just looking at the top of his head just give me this warm feeling. :)
we just came from his 1-month visit with dr gomez and everything is fine. just have to deal with some rashes on his face and body which doc says is pretty normal. for such a small person, she recommended some ointments and creams for th rashes and i'm thinking not to put that unless i really have to. the rashes are not that severe so bebeko can still live with a lesser-cute face.
i was trying to browse thru the fashion mags while i was having my haircut and it totally bored me to death! i was skipping most of the pages and i finished 3 mags in 20 mins! this is one of those signs of me changing. scary.... not really. just a thoughtful observation. what else will show??