it's so sad. why do we keep hurting each other with arguments? i'm so lost. i know in my heart i'd give up anything just to make this relationship work. but why can't i do it? H is right that i don't make myself aware all the time of each action that i do. but i just don't know. how can i be aware? i don't understand anymore. Lord God, i know You have something for me here but i just can't get it. it's always been like this... for more than 5 years. and we shouldn't be reaching this level of fighting anymore. diba? i'm so tired. is it because we're not really meant to be? is that it? Is that it, Lord God? i don't know what to do. Lead me. i just want to concentrate on myself muna and reflect on the things that make us end up with that.
