what now?

It's so weird why I'm feeling this way. I feel like I want more out of life. Am I ready to be tied down in marriage?
I guess this has been at the back of my mind but I've already set myself to be in the kind of lifestyle most people aim for. But now, I'm starting to enjoy life and just be free and meet other people. This trip to Africa has made me realize that I've just been too serious with a lot of things and now I'm more aware of the things and people around me and how to make it all fun. Now that I'm writing about it, it sounds pretty shallow. Hay… moods! Lord God, I just pray that whatever you "whisper" in my ear, I'll be able to hear you and listen. Open my heart, Lord God.

some article...

"A girl falls in love with a boy because he listens to her when she speaks, and remembers what she said a month ago. Love is sparked by the little things – the quiet word, the gesture of compassion, the look." –Father James B. Reuter, SJ

i'd love to be how lucy is with richard in a 7-year marriage. that article is so inspiring and really touched me. being so inlove in marriage. it's not about keeping a marriage but sustaining that "lovey-dovey" feeling after a long time of being together. my H is also like that, he's very touchy, holding my hand or just putting his hand on my leg or knee. this is one of the things that i appreciate about him. even if our minds are miles away, we still feel so connected with just one touch. small gestures like this give me comfort that he's near and he'll never let go. that's one thing i'm gonna pray for and work hard for... to keep being in love while married. i know that's a tall order but it's something to look forward to...